Do you feel that sense that there are different selves within you? More than the singular inner child but inner children from different points in your history. Current selves from different perspectives, different points where they can make choices that separates them from each other. Future, enlightened selves that know exactly what you need to do and are rooting for you to reach out to those choices.
I love thinking about all this stuff. It’s so fascinating and wonder-filled to think that I am not alone, I am surrounded by me’s that know me inside and out.
But as much as I like to dive into the magic, I also love to feel connected to what I’m meant for, the feeling of productivity and power and accomplishment. Where the mystery meets the practicality of the journey. That’s actually a really good line for describing what I do when I have my clearing the creative sessions. I gotta remember that one!
I’m on a journey to get into that feeling of purpose connection. I’m currently writing this at the library, a place where I feel all ready to get stuff done! There’s something about being out of the house and in the vicinity of other humans that is very invigorating to my extravert soul. It’s a lovely place to write too- and as I sit here I’m remembering a meditation space I was in a meditation space with Aubin recently.
He introduced a visualization in that space- to bring out my most successful, powered up, next level version of myself. And I couldn’t. Then he went a different direction- to reach out to the version of myself that doesn’t believe in me. That keeps me from being where I should be. What does she want to say to me? What does she believe? How does she see herself. This I could connect to. I saw someone who was sad and disappointed and overweight and feeling unworthy and unloved. Recently I thought I misplaced a pen (I promise this is related.) that was new and that wrote very smoothly. I thought that my kids had gotten into my bag. It opened up all these beleifs that I didn’t know were so pervasive and close to the surface for me. I thought that no one in my family cares about my stuff. And by extension, me. It hurt to feel that and I know those are core beliefs to that defeated version of myself that lives in my psyche. Or wherever all that spiritual stuff lives, I don’t know.
We’ve all heard the “You create your reality, with your thoughts and with your beliefs, you think you’ll never make it and you’ll make that it true. Self fulfilling prophesy, etc. It can go by a lot of different names. It can be really hard to hear and it can sound incredibly insensitive and victim blamey. But there are absolutely true aspects of it that I’m pretty sure everyone can relate to to some extent. If I only ever listen to that version of myself, and don’t allow her to be healed with truth, if I don’t imagine a more advanced “me” and try to become her, what is my destiny?
I’m on a journey to help others connect with that best version of themselves, however they visualize or connect to any of the mystery of the universe. You don’t even need to believe in the shadow or inner child at all. I want to hear the language that resonates with you and meet you where you are. So that you can step into your purpose and your story with so much confidence and joy. I have come so far already and I’m excited to imagine myself even further along on this journey.
This is where the future selves come in- When I’m having trouble believing in yourself, believing that it’s worth it to really invest in the work and emanate success- I’m listening to to a self that I don’t want to align with.
What story are you telling yourself? Whose story are you listening to and giving substance to?