Thanks for being here! I’m currently typing on a little box under the heading quick draft and there are three items below this box with recent drafts and I have thoughts about them. One of them is a blog post called “Filling a powerful purpose” and the one underneath that is from the “About the Founder” portion of a page. “Epic Kate is a visionary connector, renowned for cultivating authentic…”
Wow. It sounds like I’m trying to hard to look and feel important. It’s honestly making me cringe a bit. I do want to beleive that I have a purpose and that it is about helping and empowering people to share their stories and their impact on the world. I do aim to be a connector of people, but I certainly am not renowned. I didn’t write that line, by the way. A lovely lady I connected with did, and it felt so good to be seen that way that I cut and pasted her words onto the page.
I am seeing and getting clarity that I have put too much pressure on myself to be special and to get by with stubbornness. The will to keep pushing when it feels like nothing is happening. It is a gift to have the stubborn side that refuses to be dampened, but brute force can only go for so long before the blahs and discouragement assert themselves even stronger. I wonder what impression I give with this site. I wonder how I come across and how well it will be a tool in putting myself out into the world and attracting the people that I’m meant to connect with.
But I put myself out there, imperfections and all because it’s what I’ve got available. And it’s always better to try. Sometimes there needs to be periods of waiting and recuperating and silence and sometimes there are seasons of children being home and sickness and terrible sleep and it’s better to not push then. I’m learning to allow myself the necessary breaks and to appreciate the times when the words can flow and I can look back on what I accomplished in a day and see that writing here was one thing I did.